Most of my inspiration is from sadness...When I write, I create a release..I have no intention of causing depression from my poetry, if anything I appreciate the ability to express it.

Monday, August 29, 2011

I take photographs, to remember my life,
I keep them in a box, to keep them for awhile,
Sometimes I look at my old albums.. and laugh,
Other times I erase them from my mind.










Understanding it all.

We exist in a fish bowl swirling around,
Searching for a part of our heart that's lost.
Destined to find a soul that leaves us earth bound,
Prevent our bodies from floating into the sun. 

The flesh and bones are hollow,
Our minds and thoughts are space,
The feet that we walk on, can't get you to this state.

These dreams, they torture, leading you away,
The reality hasn't started, it's happened again today.
 
And when the lights go out, will I see your face? 
And when my heart stops beating, will my love decay...

We try to understand the atmosphere, decipher what causes pain,
Dissect our nature, know everything about everything. 
The structures that surround us, our hollow thin air,
The people we talk with are really not there.

My connection is fading, my aura is grey,
Like a satellite engulfed by a bursting star,  
Particles of my life are drifting..



















Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

morphed vision

Today I feel beautiful, tomorrow I feel plain,
Yesterday I glance in the mirror only to see an unsightly appearance,
Not long ago, I admired what was on the outside,
But now my presence scorns my vision of what's existent,

What lies inside beyond my sight,
Not a thought nor a vision that won't make me ill,


How can one ounce or weight that means nothing,
Sink me to the bottom where I submerge......










Friday, May 27, 2011

Postpartum

I wrote these two poems in December of last year......

" The end is the beginning "

Deprivation of love,
Callus emotion set in stone,
Words no longer had meaning,
Actions non existent.

My life was black and white,
Broken, disfigured heart of lies,
The truth hurt too much to admit,
After math separation arise.

I drink you in like my last glass of water,
Hurting within, fearing this ship will go under,
Open my eyes, prove to me light exists,
I can't let the darkness inside lose us in the mist.

"Feel alone"

It's cold inside,
Loneliness hasn't got the best of me yet...
The tears I cry, lack the saline I can't produce..

Ships have sailed and left me here,
Stranded on an island, survival on my side,
If I keep fighting, will this dream I wake ever exist?

Monday, May 16, 2011

Stranded in sunshine

Dust moving freely across a dry baron land,
A mirage in the distance, tricks revealed in the sand,

 Blinding rays of sunshine have drowned my skin,
 Like a cracking canvas, broken down from within.

Freedom surrounds me, yet bound to the ground,
All directions available, the distance never ends.....
In this life we cannot pretend, there is no time to extend...

No apologies, no rain checks, just a sad song that we cannot forget....

If I could, I would, If I knew right, I should....
If flames fell down from the sky, lit the world with lethal sunshine,
I'd forget why I was this way, pray to have you one more day...


























Monday, March 21, 2011

Vampire

I wrote this poem a few months ago, I will not post the original, because it is very erotic...




Dark hallways leading to lanterns filled with fire,
Not a whisper or a shout can escape these walls,
Shadows lurk the corners, foot steps echo from a stranger,
Closing in on the prey he'll devour,

Blinding light emits from the cracks up above,
Water pouring from the sky like wine from a bottle,
Rays from the sun fill the once black room,
The dark figures vanish like a blur,

Your hands and feet bound,  stumble your way to the end,
Drag yourself out, fighting to live,
Little do you know, the escape you've planned will fail,
Every exit that would exist is burning on fire.

The clock chimes dusk, your heart pounding like a drum
All hope is lost, all fears have come real,
Panic in your mind, the disease spread to your lungs,
Rapid forms of breath, inhibiting your equilibrium

Smoke fills the air, you crawl on your knees,
Choking on the oxygen, dragging your limbs till you bleed,
Your vision impaired, reaching for safety to grasp
Touching the stones on the walls, remembering each one like a map

Danger lurks behind you, zooming in on your location
Disturbing voices getting louder by the second,
Sense the evil, envision your collapse,
Fear your future, fear what is left.

Close your eyes, shield your face
Open your eyes, meet your fate,
Darkness remains, it's all that you see...



Motions swifting back and forth, you beg, you plead
Forceful pull to the ground, every inch of your skin touched,
Violent violations of your mouth, all of your clothing ripped off,
Claws sinking deep into your flesh, slamming your pelvis hard onto the stone

These eyes intensely shine bright in the dark, demented glare staring into yours,
Pale skin, cold touch,  spread your legs...

Motion in the dark, the figure disappears,
Left alone once again, day light covers the ruins you lay within,
Covered in blood, draining out your veins,
Bite marks and bruises decorate your frail body,
Life escaping the hell, rebirth of the undead.